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What I’m Thankful For

I hope everyone had a Happy Thanksgiving! Of course, this is the one time of year where I force myself to stop and look around. I reflect on all the blessings around me and those blessings that tend to get buried when piles of homework show up on the desk or when surgery of a daughter consumes all of the minutes of the day I usually have for myself.

As you all may or may not know, I’m an introvert. Big family gatherings are DEFINITELY not my thing. For the past few years, I blissfully just had pizza with my mom on the day of thanks and Thank God every year for not having to be at a big family gathering. This year was different. Every year for the past few years, the girls’ dad would take them to their grandmother’s in Michigan. This was the first year after his divorce, and he would only have his little boy for 24 hours. Not enough time to travel to Michigan for the holiday. So, I invited him over. Which then snowballed into his mother coming over and then my sister and little niece and then my grandparents.  It turned into what I hated the most…. a gathering! *queue shrieks of terror*

I didn’t really fear at as much as I usually would because this will be mine and the girls’ last Thanksgiving for a minute. I thought I should try to do some semblance of a get-together. One last hurrah if you will. I even made the pies! I was so very proud of myself. I made a pumpkin pie, and a pecan pie as these pies would be made at our very first Kiwi Thanksgiving.

Let me tell you. This gathering was an utterly overwhelming nightmare. His mom drains the very life out of things. The constant chatter grated on my brain cells. Each and every single little brain cell. I prayed for the evening to end so that I could relax and wind down. When everyone was gone, and all the mess was cleaned up, I passed out hardcore!

Even though the day was an introvert’s nightmare, I was thankful for it. I was thankful for all of the friends and family that love my girls and me. I am thankful that we are able to afford a feast when others sadly can not. I was thankful for the health of all who were with us.

I am thankful for my daughter’s recovery after her surgery. I was so worried that she wasn’t going to be able to handle it. But she has beautifully, and the wound is healing great!

I am thankful for my gorgeous fiancee. I have been distant lately – not on purpose but because of the sheer volume of craziness that has been in my household as of late. My job, my schoolwork, the surgery, and the holidays – all of these things have taken time away from her, and I’m so thankful and grateful that she has stuck around. I would be so mad if the tables were turned but I am high maintenance, so there is that. I love her so much!

I hope everyone reading this has reflected on all of their blessings this holiday season. Hopefully, we can all reflect on these blessings more than once a year.

God bless you all!

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Thanksgiving Special Edition Post

Thanksgiving was pretty cool this year! Let me expand on that.

First of all, Thanksgiving landed on my Honey Bee’s birthday this year. Even though they don’t observe it in New Zealand, it was still pretty cool to me! And I am so thankful for her and her kids!  She said that my mom posted a happy birthday post on her Facebook Wall. I love that!!

Secondly, the Thanksgiving lunch feast thingy wasn’t all that bad. I’m pretty much very socially awkward. I don’t like being around a ton of people. Especially acquaintances. This year we went to my oldest sister’s in-laws. We went there because my nephew was there and he’s leaving for Germany for 3 years on Monday. So, of course, I was going to be wherever he is.

My family stayed in the dining room which was very comforting to me. We had some laughs and good food. Then we bothered our kids with tons of pictures cuz that is how we do.

Thirdly, my kids and I went home and had a quiet evening. I watched a movie with my youngest as my oldest slinked away to my room to watch YouTube videos.  I also did some coloring cuz now I’m obsessed with this whole adult coloring your stress away stuff.

Lastly, my older sister came home with my baby niece. We watched the football game. Bears vs. the Packers. BEAR DOWN!!!

My Honey Bee sent me a text saying that the football game was on over there too. So we watched it “together”. It was so neat! Even her kids were cheering on Da Bears.  My sister was teaching her the rules of the game and asking her non football related questions. Which makes me so very happy!!! I love when my family interacts with my girlfriend. It gives me the way fuzzies.

Most importantly, DA BEARS WON!!! Woo hoooo!!! We won against the Packers in Lambeau Field on Thanksgiving during the whole Brett Favre honoring-retiring-his-jersey-number-thingy. *does a cartwheel poorly*

All in all, I can honestly say this was one of my favorite Thanksgivings.

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Something special happened when I met someone at my age and have her turned my world upside and rearrange what I thought about relationships and love.

When I met her, we were both saying that we were Bi. As time went on, she blew that all apart.  I was scared and a little crazy (OK, maybe a lottle) about my sexuality and then she showed me what a true partner was supposed to be. Loyal. Supportive. Trustworthy as well as trusting. Caring. I could go on and on about what her character traits are. I’m just trying to get my point across that I know now what a healthy relationship looks like and what it feels like. And I’m never going back again!!

She tells me that she never makes a big deal about her birthday but that was before she met me. Her birthday is a big deal. Especially to me.

365 days I was blessed with her smiles. 365 days I was able to hear her giggles. 365 days of nerdy fandom discussions. 365 days of feeling like I am the most beautiful person in her eyes. Even when I didn’t look so beautiful. 365 of hearing her amazing kiwi voice telling me that she hearts me.  365 days of her eye rolling when I say don’t understand why they say toMAHto but not poTAHto.

Here’s to another amazing 365 days.  I look forward to every one of them. They will always and forever be a big deal to me.  I don’t think there will ever be enough days to tell you how very special you are to me.

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What I Am Thankful For: My Health

Ok. So I’ve had more surgeries than a 36-year-old should have. But considering that I’m an obese American, I’m pretty healthy.  I can get around. I don’t have breathing issues or high blood pressure. I don’t have any major allergies. I don’t get migraines.

I’m a pretty lucky girl when it comes to my health. That’s why I need to take care of this body better.

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What I’m Thankful For: The Weather

Now the next 25 days are in no particular order.  I’m just going to list things randomly.

I wanna bring up the weather this week.  It has been beautiful!  I’ve been able to go for walks on my lunch break and that is amazing for November!  I am very thankful that I was able to go one more week of lunch time walks.

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Who I Am Thankful For: My Honey Bee and her Baby Bees

Seriously, people, this woman… let me tell you!

Ok.  So I don’t have all year to tell you why I’m thankful for my Honey Bee.  She is beautiful and kind.  She is loving and funny. She’s sexy and nerdy.  She’s my everything.  She has stuck around when others would have cursed my name and slammed the door in my face.  She is so supportive and always thinks of me first.  (Which, by the way, I don’t ask her to.  She just does.) I know that will always be me and her vs. the world.  She’s got my back and I got hers.  I adore her!!  And I’m not letting her go!!

And her Baby Bees!!  Ok.  So they’re not babies.  They are the same age as my girls.  But they are so awesome.  They are so funny and I know they love me as much as I love them.  I can’t wait to give them big ole American sized hugs!!  I have never wanted to be a step mom before.  But man, do I want to be their step mom!  I really do!!

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Who I Am Thankful For: My Girls

My girls are my life!  They brighten up my life in so many different ways.  They are certainly Yin and Yang.  My oldest is laid back.  My youngest is very charismatic.  They are both creative in their own ways.  One loves to draw and the other writes amazing stories.  They both have their own sense of humor and they genuinely make me laugh.

I am so very proud of them.  I can not wait to see what they do in the future to make this world a better place because they have definitely made my world a better place. I just love them so much!!