The girls’ dad moved out last Monday to move back in with his wife. They are making good efforts to stay together. I’m so happy about this. I hate when couples divorce because marriage is too hard for them. Trust me. I’m not anti-divorce. There are very good reasons to divorce. But throwing a fit like a little baby because things aren’t going your way is not a good excuse.
Early last week, I emailed his wife and said that I am so happy that they are back together and working it out. I told her that I and my family are continuing to pray for them. I never got a response back. I went into overthinking mode (Imagine that!) and tried to recount my steps. What did I do to offend her? The last thing I said to her was when she flipped out when she heard BD had plans. Then BD texts me and said it wasn’t cool that I told her that he had plans. So I sent her a text back saying that I didn’t need the stress so don’t ask me about BD ever again. I thought maybe that was too harsh. I thought maybe I should apologize to her for being so direct while she was hurting from the break up.
I decided to text BD to see if his wife was mad at me (because I’m 12 and all). He never answered the question but instead talked about changing his mailing address back. So now I’m EVEN more suspicious. I told him to call me as soon as he could. He called me on my lunch break. I asked if she was mad at me. I said that I wanted to be her friend again. He said “Well that’s never going to happen.” Of course I’m on my period and super emotional. I started crying and asked him why. Is it because I’m gay? I didn’t know what I did wrong. And blah blah blah! (I feel so stupid for crying now.) He said that she wants a separate life from my family and me. They have a lot of stuff to still get through. And it’s just easier for her to not be a part of my family.
Her family and friends probably were in her ear about how weird it is to have a good relationship with the ex-girlfriend. Even though, I am no threat whatsoever. Her family doesn’t know I’m gay so maybe they do think it’s weird. But I’m pretty sure she’s told her family by now that I like the ladies. And I really can’t help that my family is awesome. Are we weird? Definitely! But my family is the best! We take everyone in and it’s really hard to leave our family when we’ve accepted you into the pack.
I’m going to miss BD. He’s been one of my best friends. We’ve been through a lot together. He is really an awesome dad to the girls. I just know this new rule means hardly any time with him. But I guess it’s normal to not spend a lot of time with your ex. But really… who said I was normal??