Posted in Honey Bee

I Am Alive!

I am having a wonderful time! I thought that I would have time to blog and did keep telling EJ that I’m going to blog. Everyday I would tell her. But honestly, I’d rather spend time with her than in front of the computer. I also haven’t been updating my twitter account.

I’ll be updating when I go back to the states. Which is in a few days. *frowny face*

Posted in Travel

And so the adventure begins…

I’m on my way to eat breakfast with my mom and my girls before I depart on my first of many flights to New Zealand!

Send prayers, thoughts, good jujubees… Whatever you can send my way!

And follow me on Twitter: @americankiwi16

Posted in dealing with stress, Travel

The Overwhelming Sense of 2 Days!

As I was happily getting ready for work without a care on my mind, the Today Show broke through my thoughts of unicorns and cuddling river otters in a rainbow stream with a news story about the airport that I’m flying out of.

Apparently, they have had a turnover of 100 security agents a week and the videos of the security lines look absolutely horrid! People have missed their flights because of the delays in the security lines. Southwest Airlines had to supply cots to those who missed their flights because of it. I’m not flying with Southwest but I just could imagine how insane I would be. So, now I’m going through the scenarios in my mind of all the possible worst things that could happen to me.

I broke down crying the parking lot this morning before heading into work. I am so overwhelmed. Being an introvert by nature and not having a lot of self-confidence throughout my early years of my life, this can be a little much to digest. Let’s add being neurotic on top of that and,  well,  we have an amazing emotional cocktail going on.

This is when the time difference between EJ and I really sucks. I’m over here in America freaking out like a freaky freaked out freak and she’s lying in bed sleeping unbeknownst of my worries. Of course I freaked out on her first via messaging. And then went on to freak out on other friends that live in the same time zone.

As I was awaiting their replies, a small voice in the back of my mind spoke to me. I am a Christian. Who is readily there for me right now at this moment? Who has always had my back? God. This human life can really take its toll. It can really make it very easy to put God on a little shelf in His “Break in case of Emergency” box. And when I heard this voice I felt ashamed at first because I didn’t come to Him. After all that I’ve been through in the past and knowing He’s always been there for me. And after all of the blessings I have in my life, I didn’t come to Him first.

Yesterday, I read a very interesting blog about Faith by Mark Landry (if you haven’t been following him, you have been missing out!) and how Faith means differently than what most churches teach us. In his post “The Most Misunderstood Thing about Faith” he states:

God isn’t pleased with you unless you have FAITH.

To have FAITH, you must

(A) Believe that God exists
(B) Believe the things that you’re hoping for will come to fruition
(C) Believe that if you follow God you’ll be rewarded

I believe God exists. Why can’t I believe that what I’m hoping for (ie, less anxiety, smooth sailing through airports and flights) will be answered and that I’ll be rewarded (ie, having the great possible time with my honey bee)? He goes on to say that “churchy” folk like me don’t like to believe that there’s something in it for us. Which is totally true!

I also haven’t been reading my Bible as of late. Like for the past couple weeks. So, I cracked open my Google on my phone and looked up scriptures about anxiety. Here are a few gems:

”Cast all your anxiety on Him because He cares for you.” ~1 Peter 5:7

“Jesus told him, ‘Don’t be afraid; just believe,” ~Mark 5:36

And here are a couple of my favorites!

”Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” ~Philippians 4:6-7

“Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace. And be thankful.

Those last two spoke to me because through all my fears and anxiety, I have been truly blessed with this opportunity to travel to foreign lands and see sights that my family or friends will never travel to see. To be in awe of all of His creation. To see different species of animals that I would have never seen face to face in my local area. To see the mountains and coastlines and the ocean. All of these things that I should be truly thankful. All of these things that I should be overjoyed to witness have now been clouded with fear and anxiety. That’s pretty messed up.

As I was writing down these scriptures on pieces of paper that I can carry with me on the planes and through the airports, my friends started to text me their words of encouragement and how they all believe that everything will be alright. What was even more spectacular is that EJ messaged me. The wind woke her up and she checked her phone to see her distraught and overly excitable girlfriend’s message. She wrote:

you’re leaving your country for the first time, and you’re going to meet someone you’ve never physically met before, and not only that but you really want it to go well when we do meet. All of that together is a lot of pressure, it’s perfectly alright to be feeling scared and anxious, I would probably be worried if you weren’t concerned at all

She gets me. He *points upward* gets me. I know in my heart that He woke her up to comfort me. I am feeling much calmer. And I’m trying to not use prayer as a spare tire in case of emergency but as a steering wheel to guide me as my lovely fellow blogger quoted from her Sunday service last week.

I’m a work in progress. I will be for the rest of my life. I must always work on my Faith and have a grateful and thankful heart for the opportunities that I have been given and the amazing support system of family and friends He has placed me in.

SIDE NOTE: The guys that brought lunch for the office gave me loads of airport advice and I keep getting calmer still.


What are your travel hacks that have helped you in the past? I sure could use the tips and helpful advice!

Posted in Book Reviews

Book Review: Flight SQA016

Title: Flight SQA016
Pages: 267 (Kindle Edition)
Author: A.E. Radley

Description as on
Spurred on by overwhelming and ever-increasing debts, Emily White takes a job working in the first-class cabin on the prestigious commuter route from her home of New York to London with Crown Airlines. A gruelling transatlantic schedule means she is in the air nearly as much as she is on the ground and desperately misses her five-year-old son.

On board she meets Olivia Lewis, who is a literal high-flying business executive with a weekly commute, a meticulous schedule, and terrible social skills.

When a personal emergency brings them together, will Emily be able to swallow her pride and accept help from Olivia? And will Olivia be able to prevent herself from saying the wrong thing?


OH EMM JAH!! I loved this book!! LOVED LOVED LOVED IT! I would be up late in the night reading it and only my body doing a forced shut down had me putting it away!

The characters were very well developed. Even the secondary characters I really started to love. I hope there’s more of Simon! He is hilarious! You could really feel all the emotions these two ladies were going through. Emily’s pride and protection of her small son and Olivia’s painful social ineptness. I was rooting for these two throughout most of the book. I fell in love with them. But you know why I loved this book so much?? NO SEX!! I know. I am such a prude! This is why I read mostly young adult books because I just find sex scenes uncomfortable. I don’t like watching porn so why would I like reading it?

I didn’t know this was a fanfic of the SwanQueen (Once Upon A Time ship of Emma and Regina). So, before I even knew this I thought if they made this a movie Lana Parrilla (Regina) would make an excellent Olivia. Little did I know that’s who she was modeled after. And hindsight I could totally see Jennifer Morrison (Emma) as Emily.

Radley does such a great job showing and not telling her story. Something that I want in my writing as well. This book was such a great example that I would like to have for my own romantic novels.

I would totally recommend this book. Fair warning… there is a huge cliff hanger at the end and her next novel isn’t due out until October!! ACK!!


Learn more about A.E. Radley here. She’s pretty rad.
Download or purchase Flight SQA016 here.

Posted in Adulthood, Relationships

The Passions of Miss Vee

How could one simple thing change the whole perspective of my life?

These past couple of years has been life changing! And it’s all EJ’s fault! It all begins with her. I’m not saying that God or my girls or my family or my friends that I have been with me since the beginning haven’t shaped my life. They have. I suppose what I’m trying to say is that EJ has unlocked my life’s potential as of recently. She has opened doors to things that were long forgotten in my life. I never thought that I would have the potential to actually have a love that I could truly be proud of or encourages me to be my own independent person. She believes in me. She believes in my worth that I have forgotten or have never believed in myself. She wants me to be my own person without depending on her to make me a whole.

I know. I know. I don’t know how many blog posts I have written about her that has said the same thing over and over. But here’s the twist. This blog post isn’t actually about her. The one simple little thing I’m gushing about is downloading a magazine for a free month. This magazine is called Poets & Writers.

I have always wanted to be an author since I was a wee little Vee. I had notebooks and composition books and journals filled with stories and poems. I wish I still had those books. I remember I was writing a criminal romance story when I was in 6th grade. Oh boy! How I would love to read how I wrote back then. I can’t remember. Something happened. It’s called life.

Actually, it’s called living a carbon copy life. It’s a life where I thought I should be living because everyone else around me was living it. I was so caught up and worried about getting a man that I had no time or energy for the things that really mattered in life. Like God and my girls and my dreams and passions I used to have. I know that I’m supposed to put God first in everything I do but EJ opened that door for me to have a relationship with God. She opened that door so I wasn’t so concerned about finding a perfect relationship and focus on perfecting my relationship with my children. She opened that door so I could get back to what I really wanted to be in life. A writer!!

Ok… so that might have drifted back to why my girlfriend is so awesome. Sorry folks! Ahem… WRITING!

I’ve joined a writer’s newsletter because I was looking up ways to describe a neckline on my leading lady’s shirt as she reluctantly goes on this date. The Write Practice popped up on several occasions when I’ve been researching on being a better writer and it is pretty awesome! I’m really struggling with description and how much is too much or how much is enough. It really has some great advice. They send you articles with writing prompts attached to them. It’s really opened my eyes up a lot and it’s really started to spark my passion again. I would highly recommend this newsletter and website. Go check it out!

It wasn’t until yesterday morning when my sparks turned into a bonfire. I got a notification over my phone saying to download this year’s hottest magazines for $5 a year with a free month to start out with. Usually they aren’t the hottest magazines of the year. It’s usually Women’s Day or Cosmo or some kind of fishing/hunting/bird thing. Sorry if you read those! They are just not for me! Then I came across Poets & Writers. SAY WHAT! Well that’s me!! And let me tell you! I’m so excited!!

There’s just so much to read about. There are writing contests and grants and resources. There are so many adverts about workshop retreats and I so want to go one of those one day!

Needless to say… THIS GIRL IS ON FIRE!! Oh yeah. I went there.

Are you a writer? What inspires you?

Posted in Travel

7 days!!

Holy crap!! Next week I will be embarking on a travel adventure like never before. I seriously can’t believe I am doing something like this. As I booked my plane tickets in March, I was so nervous about flying alone. So nervous about being trapped in a little tin can in the sky. So claustrophobic for 13 hours straight!!!

I’ve wasting my days away at work not actually working but going over every last detail I can. I joined a frequent flyers club.  I also looked at the different seat maps for the models of planes I’ll be flying. And let me tell you… I feel a little better.  I’ll show you why.

As you can see, if I went by the seat map on my TripCase app, I would be passing out from hyperventilating. I know that everyone will be in close quarters. I’m just saying I’m glad I can imagine another inch between me and another passenger.

My next task is to weed through all of the Pinterest pins on traveling. I pinned some awesome stuff! I also need to start packing little by little so I don’t I freak out so much in the end.

I’m just so very excited!! Ahhhhh!!!

On a sad note, EJ’s boss came into work sick so now she’s sick! Pray for a speedy recovery so that she is well when I’m over there!!

Posted in Family, God

Happy Mother’s Day!!

I know. I’m a day late but I was having a wonderful day with all the Mother’s Day festivities!

First was a wonderful church service. The sermon was about the Tabernacle and how Jesus made the old covenant void and gave us a new and improved covenant.  We read Hebrews 8-10. It was such an inspiring and affirming teaching.

There were several scriptures that I highlighted in my bible yesterday. I’ll post the list at the end so you can read for yourself. But one of the scriptures brought peace and hope to my soul:

But now Jesus, our High Priest, has been given a ministry that is far superior to old priesthood, for he is the one who mediates for us a far better covenant with God, based on better promises. Hebrews 8:6 NLT

The old laws in the Old Testament. Christ is the perfect sacrifice. He opened the throne room for EVERYONE when He died on the cross. We can have a relationship directly with God.

It was just an amazing service.

These are the verses I highlighted:
Hebrews 8:6, 13; 9:15, 10:9-14.

As far as Mother’s Day festivities, we had a cookout at my place with my mom, sisters, and grandma with our kids. We played with sidewalk chalk, ate good food, had lots of laughs, and even danced a little bit.

After everyone left, my girls and I did a little bit of shopping and got popcorn from the movie theater to eat while we watched a movie at home. Which I fell asleep half way through. I couldn’t understand how Scarlet Overkill went from loving those three minions like they were her pets to wanting to blow them up.

I hope you all had a wonderful mother’s day!! Don’t stop being awesome!!